Tough

Working hasn't never been so tough! Or rather working with people had never been so tough. We should be getting better n better as it goes but how did we end up otherwise? I have a feeling it's becos everyone is over taxed and stretched. Henceforth, the tension is much more and therefore more conflicts... It's definilty not a healthy sign.

I seriously duno how to progress from here. Totally torn in between of the management n other departments; n torn in between with my beliefs. Things are happening against what I believe in. If only my role is more precise than perhaps I will happier.

Perhaps I shud have taken up the challenge then, then I wud have the opportunity to make a stand. But I guess no or crying over spill milk n I'm sure god will have it's own plan fir me. Afterall, everything happen for a reason...

How different is this year birthday different from the rest? It's the big 3, it's like entering a totally new phase in life. A totally new chapter waiting to be explored.

I told myself today is a different day, it's need to be different. I wore a new sexy lacy black dress n carry my new charming shocking pink katey, drove myself to work n went to celebrate with my poly friends at a nice decorated french restaurant- au petit salut.

You can call me anything u want, materialistic, over indulgence in earthly possesions n pleasure. But I have every right to do whatever I want to celebrate my 30 yeArS of living.

Though inhad to work, it's still a great day. We had celebration at work. Although there was no surprise on the party, every words sang warms my heart deeply. I've receive gifts from my birthday wish list , perfume n my very first coach card holder! Diy poster, ck wristlet. Wat a day!

Indeed I did not had to spend my birthday alone othrwise how sad could that be. Thanks angels!

Now I just wish that I didn't had to pray again next year that I do not have to spend my birthday alone

Good nite angels n thanks for all the blessings!